Monday, 9 January 2017

woe is me

it's excruciatingly difficult for me to cry nowadays. although there's this sadness that keeps intensifying within me, i just couldn't cry it out. i keep trying to find things that could make me cry; movies, dramas, books. anything you could name. sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. this woe is crushing my heart so much that i tend to feel like it's hard to breathe, like something's pressing hard on my chest. no room to inhale any air in. as if my lungs are being compressed. i don't even know why i'm sad, that's what pissing me off the most. but tbh, letting this out in words makes me feel a bit better. a lot better now. the reason i can only write when i'm sad.